I have long been thinking about my love for Radiohead. Its not easy to put down in words the influence the band’s music has on me. It was not too long ago when i started getting drowned in a maddening thirst to get more out of radiohead’s music.
Thom Yorke’s straight to face lyric, jonny’s eclectic selection of instrumentation from mind numbing guitar riffs to subtle cries from ondes martenot, band’s spacey drum arrangements. I have pondered over and again what kind of effects can occur from the love for this band. Below are few
1)  One may find himself/herself hungry all the time. This hunger can be for anything music, success, food, doing things which you already are over-doing time and again. This hunger may lead you to become more active, more open to opinions, more open to the world, more questioning about the world, more desirous of getting to know more, more confused and more questioning the confusion, more  more music from the band, more hungry for thom’s voice, more hungry for jonny greenwood, more hungry for Colin’s bass, knowing more about any particular song’s arrangement,more of everything you could find about the band, more of repeated plays on youtube of each and every song you can find, or thom yorke’s solo stuff, jonny’s solo stuff,  more inquisitive about how these guys are able to produce the sound they produce. This more(s) may lead to further multitudes of more(s) which may lead to a lot of making and doing (learning etc). E.g. Making music, making videos, learning music, learning art, learning and reading more about the band and how they do things,reading what instruments they use, trying to make music, making music, making ambient music, making psychedelic music, making electronic music, making something with which you can connect yourself. Making music and publishing it, making your family listen to your music, making your brother listen to your music, making your mom listen to your music, making your girlfriend(wife) listen to your music, making your friends listen to your music, making everyone around you listen to your music, making the music visible, making the world listen to your music, making sure you love your own music(not caring about others), making sure you are drowned in a cloud of madness surrounded by none but yourself, making sure that you are doing enough of these making(s). This ‘making’  may sound as a normal process by which a individual  goes ahead and develops interest and learns to do things but there is more to it and it does not ends here. While walking, sitting in a bus, sitting in a metro, sitting any where, driving car, sleeping, lying down anywhere, sitting with friends, sitting with family, while meeting people, while on work, while traveling, while in flight, while talking, while making (anything) and even while shitting it makes you unconsciously drowned and craving for more from the band, more music more from life. The cycle of more gets triggered yet again. I forgot to mention a few more more(s) like finding more chords, more tabs, more tutorial on chords and tabs, more of youtube, more of dead air space, more of the ways to promote your music, more ways to get more friends and making sure more of the songs on your page get heard by more people anywhere in the world.Does this ends here? I guess this is one of the effect the band’s music has on one’s life or how one may correlate the occurring in one’s life and also as a break away from a trillion other things floating in the world.

2) I have tried understanding why things are construed the way they are. The preponderance of what is present and what has been established as a set belief and has entered in the  genes of each human fails to amuses me.I really don’t intend to delve myself into each of the band’s song and carve out idols representative of  any meaningful explanation of the songs here,which is not ’ impossible’ but will be a futile attempt to capture the immense effect the whole musical form can have on one individual and will change as much as are the number of individuals in the world overwhelmed (crazed) with Radiohead’s music. So in which direction will all this flow, will it create something meaningful, something creative, something relevant to the world or a few individuals or may be some other life form known to us or still oblivious to us. While trying to analyze the immense closeness i felt to some of radiohead’s songs, i thought listening to Pink Floyd might bring me out a bit. Pink Floyd did got me interested in some of their earlier works. From then on i delved further into more bands like Brian Eno, some early German Krautrock, and obviously Pink Floyd. I guess all this happened in the last two-three years. The only thing which i wanted to map out was what made these bands capable enough to produce such music, what was the driving force, was it just the passion for creating music, talent, access to studios, instruments,then i realized easy availability of resources pointed to nought and people with all the musical instruments, studios, recording, mixing skills may not end up producing the musical magic some of these musicians/bands created. I have pondered enough and tried to narrow down to the ‘key’, the key to the ability to produce something real, something authentic, genuine if you may call it and the key i feel is ‘EXPERIMENTATION’.

I guess as the universe in its early stages just a little after the BIG BANG, came out erupting and crying in its cloudy, dusty form everything could have gone wrong resulting in a impervious mass which could have either been a lifeless infection forced to float around forever or one dark sucker which could have sucked even the fucking Big Bang itself or may be some other universes, cosmos other life forms or whatever. Everything could have gone the other way also where the vaginal fluid which came out of the Big Bang could have given birth to life forms on each planet in each constellation, each moon and each everything. But as fate may have it the BIG BANG itself could have been a nought may be also this is a nought, zero. I wish to write more but i think of thinking not to write the trepidations which incline me towards Radiohead’s music.

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After all the experimentation with different genres. I have decided to focus on alternative/ psychedelic music for my next album.

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